I don’t want to write, I want to keep it all inside bottled up. Let my mind take the reigns and steer me around the park and back so to speak. LOL My mind will be filling my head with lies, thoughts of self sabotage, whispering words of unworthiness, and feeding my insecurities and all of it is made up, none of it is real except my fear that is creating this chaotic voice inside my head.

I have been feeding that voice today, but today I am telling it no more! I deserve happiness, calm, and peace. I know my nervous system is still integrating that calm and peace into my whole being. I welcome the peace, bringing a stillness that’s healing, and comforts me.

Healing takes time and you can’t hurry the process, so why am I in a hurry? It’s definitely challenging, looking in a mirror, facing myself everyday. Sometimes it looks like and ocean (feeling tiny), tall mountain top and I’m at the bottom, literally. That’s how we all start, but I’m here anyways, showing up, leaving my thoughts on a day when I just wanted to keep it all bottle up, hold it in, eat my feeling if I have to. I’m here, showing myself the kindness I deserve.

Update 6/25/2025: Photos taken April, 22, 2023 in Jaco, Costa Rica, during my Reiki Master Teacher training.