I have been all over the place today emotionally, it has been a wild ride. I call it a five point harness day, buckle up buttercup!

Pack your bags you’re going for a guilt trip, it’s been a lot of stuff. Unhealed bullshit, could not contain it today. Just bubbled out of me today.

Today I decided I was tired, didn’t want to do anything for myself. I didn’t want to cook,. didn’t want to do my normal things that I do for myself, for me. That approach, an old one, doesn’t work, and it never has!

I felt awful by this afternoon, and I couldn’t seem to flip the script until tonight. I really dislike feeling not in control of my emotions. I’m working on being more aware, but today the lack of self care really steam rolled me tonight.