I haven’t sewn anything, it’s been a while. I’m having a weird stand off with myself? Not sure what’s going on, I understand it’s fear. Why? What am I so scared of? Making a mistake? NEWS flash! of course I will make mistakes! I haven’t altered anything past a button or a quick hem.

I want to bleach tie dye my black dress I wear all the time. I used to love wearing black, that’s the old me. Figuring out what I want my clothes to look like? I love patterns, very feminine lace, I have skinny jeans I want to create wider, maybe slight bell bottoms.

Maybe figure out which project will be only a few steps? I need to just start! Pick something, take a before photo, and start. Look up each step if I have too! JUST START ALREADY!!!

I have been busy doing all day, but the one thing I really want to do. Design my new clothes out of my old, I will figure this out! It’s been frustrating and challenging for me lately.

Self sabotage can be very subtle sometimes, it creeps up on you. Specially when it looks like being productive, until it gets in the way of being my creative self. My creative self is even more important, I have just begun to discover that part of me.

Well I’m off to at least look at my clothes and hopefully pick a project. Start research tonight, maybe at least have a before photo.