Fear has been barking at me hard! I am inching forward, but I see all my toxic bullshit as it’s coming at the moment, in real time. I’m grabbing at whatever I CAN MENTALLY TO NOT LOOK AT MY OWN STUFF!

It’s really getting old, I’m so exhausted by my own mary go round of emotions.

I’m hoping to get some rest tonight, swim tomorrow, movement will help me feel better. I’m going to stop feeding this negativity wheel, no reason for it.