I feel like I am sweeping away the ashes of a life I thought I was going to live, now gone. What’s next?

That’s a big question, what do I want to create? I want to create a life I don’t need to escape from. I working on a vision in my mind slowly putting it together piece by piece.

How does this new life feel? What am I doing day by day? What does my home look like?

Sometimes a death of an old life gives birth to a new one, hoping to have some more answers to my own questions. Sometime patients is all I have to keep myself calm during all the uncertainty.

I know in my heart all of this has happened for a reason. This time next year, I will be looking back at me from this day and smile, maybe even giggle. Life is only going to get better, I have to believe that.