I used to think if I let others make choices for me, it kept me from making one, having to choose, ask myself, be aware.

Not making a choice is still a choice, no getting around that. Weather I chose to participate in my own life, is a choice. If I said yes, when I wanted to say no. When I wanted to says yes but was told it was a no, and abandoned myself in the process!

I take full responsibility, for all the times I didn’t participate, didn’t decide for myself because I was told others knew better than I did for myself. Guess what, not asking me, was just another way I was not getting to know myself, giving away my awareness, to feel like I belonged.

Belonging is a lie, we are not supposed to belong, we are supposed to understand the gifts we were sent to this world to share with others. We are all here for a specific purpose, we all have something unique the world needs, why else would we exist?

So on this journey of mine, there had only been me to ask. A big question that stumped me for awhile, what do I want? Ask yourself that question without parameters, it’s not a simple question, at least not for me. I still ask myself, what do I want? The answer is usually, allowing myself to feel the answer, instead of think of the answer, or make sure the brain, heart, and spirit match up.

I keep reminding myself that everything that exists in my life has been a choice I have made, weather I participate or not. So to change my life, I had to start making different choices that aligned with who I am, not others, who also don’t know. How could they, they are not me!

Choosing God is a choice that I have made, following the faith I have in God, and trusting this divine journey that I am walking, aligns with my soul purpose. Coming home to myself, so I can be of service to others.

Bringing others with me on my journey of self discovery with my blog, is aligned with my soul’s calling. I have been through hell literally, walked in the valley of darkness, but I am still filled with joy to be here, everyday.

With God’s help, holding me upright at times! I am walking with God finding all my pieces I gave away along the way, and the chance to find new pieces that have yet to be discovered, exciting! Loving this faithful, adventurous journey! Amen!