I am actively working on being more aware through out my day, my biggest distraction is my phone, social media, not surprising. I know it’s not healthy, it keeps me from living in the present moment, so I don’t have to address what’s going on in my mind.

I feel today was a success, not that I didn’t use it, I used it for much shorter times periods, and not using social media. So incomes the awareness, checking in with my conscious, and subconscious mind.

Without supervision, I would notice the old thought patterns, the negative jabs at myself. I was on the defense all day today, refocusing, redirecting my mindset back to the positive.

When creating a healthy foundation mentally, awareness is vital, I had not realized how much I am still needing to flip the script. Working towards a healthier life, person, everything in my environment has to be feeding the positive.

I have found so many thing in my life were doing the opposite, TV, movies, certain music, what I ate, anything that I have been consuming needed to change. God was instrumental in pointing this out, and I have been very stubborn in this regard to my phone.

Now I understand it was my toxic avoidance pattern driving, instead of God. Being faithful is important even when I don’t understand the why, and I am still working on my faith, in the quiet, stillness, most likely why I have been clinging to my phone.

I am grateful that I know now, it’s changed my perception, I choose health, I choose a happier healthier me!