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  • Self Care

    So many years of my life, I had always put myself in the back of the bus, last in line. I would worry, fuss, and try to predict what someone needed before they even asked for it. I would exhaust… Continue reading

  • Pain into Power

    Shadow work, is all about transforming your pain into power. In the past versions of me I avoided the pain, with alcohol, pot, and the many distraction this world offers. We have endless distractions at our disposal. Working through the… Continue reading

  • Wake Up!

    I was on an awakening path for a while, but as I have talked about in previous posts, I had to face a lot of tower moments. The one that woke me up from my slumber was a huge heart… Continue reading

  • Disconnected from my Body

    The event that changed my world, it disconnected me from my body, I was only 5 years old. I didn’t return again until I was 47. I was so excited, getting to go on a big trip, fly on a… Continue reading

  • Pain is Wisdom!

    I have had a lot of tragic events throughout my life, without those events I wouldn’t be who I am today. Instead of erasing myself with past regrets, I have leaned into the pain. This healing journey, has been about… Continue reading

  • Healing Generational Trauma

    I have been on a long bumpy road, healing generational trauma. There are so many ups, downs, potholes, highs, lows, crooked roads, nothing is in a straight line. Looking in the mirror today, I am tired. There is only me… Continue reading

  • I am a Mirror

    The mirror effect, as a chosen one, means when I enter a room people stare. It’s not something I enjoy, it just is. Most of the stare’s are not kind, usually faces of dislike, instant hate just by walking into… Continue reading

  • Life in Review

    I have been reviewing my life as a whole, but in segments, different periods of time. I have been shifting and changing so much this past year, I have been working to gain more understanding of each version I have… Continue reading

  • Still Becoming….

    I have stepped out, left behind a world, more like environments that no longer serve the healthy version I am becoming. I didn’t know that getting healthy would have me release so much, people, places, and a lot of material… Continue reading

  • Confession

    When I started my blog back in April 2025, every post I made I was high on pot, weed, mary jane, whatever you like to call it. It had been my normal state for so long I didn’t think it… Continue reading