Here I am trying to control, everytime I try and take the wheel, universe says nope! Letting go again! I understand, yes, okay! Today was frustrating for all sorts of new reasons, I’m so grateful to be on the other… Continue reading

Fear has been barking at me hard! I am inching forward, but I see all my toxic bullshit as it’s coming at the moment, in real time. I’m grabbing at whatever I CAN MENTALLY TO NOT LOOK AT MY OWN… Continue reading

What is it, that weird uncomfortable feeling? It’s hard to get comfortable, no matter if I’m sitting in the kitchen, or lying down? It’s something, a feeling, bubbling frustration, undercurrent? It’s a feeling of restlessness maybe? Makes the air feel… Continue reading

How am I going to create this new wardrobe of mine? How do I plan, what comes first or next? Sounds so simple right?! I am a beginner, I know that each next step will come, but only if I… Continue reading

I am at a loss for words tonight, I am exhausted today. It was a good day, emotionally it was also a chill day, felt good. It was a travel day, I happen to be more tired this time around.… Continue reading

Sewing class today has opened me up! I have been looking at my clothes, and my inspiration photos. Having a lot of fun coming up with different print mash ups, ruffles, so many options, so much discovery. I have been… Continue reading

Lots of releasing tonight, tears, sitting with it. Being present in this mindspace is challenging. I feel like an old chapter of my life is closing, I will never be this version of me again. This time in pause, suspended,… Continue reading

I did a quick glance in the bathroom mirror this afternoon, and my own image startled me? I felt like I was looking at someone else, I don’t even know how describe what was so startling? I know that I’m… Continue reading

Welcoming in the new, embracing the journey, allowing myself to flow. That’s my intention, following the flow, when I’m not in my own way. I really wanted to steer, take control today. I practiced a pause, asked how I’m doing… Continue reading

My crazy roller coaster emotions today, up and down, crashed a few times mentally. At one point I felt like a two year old, and I wasn’t feeling very accepting of it at the time, surprise! Old toxic bullshit re-emerging,… Continue reading