I was on an awakening path for a while, but as I have talked about in previous posts, I had to face a lot of tower moments. The one that woke me up from my slumber was a huge heart break, I thought I was with someone I could trust, I poured myself into them, eventually lost myself, complete self abandonment. I had hunches, once I finally chose myself, walked away all the betrayals came to light.

I am grateful that God the most high saw what was happening behind my back and pulled me out of that situation. I am so grateful that I am standing on my own today, to invest all my time and energy into myself, creating the life I have always dreamed of.

That most recent tower moment was the spark to my full awakening. I have no regrets, I am still glad I went through those challenges. I have moved on down the road, taking the lessons and wisdom with me. Yes, in spite of everything I forgive, I forgive to set myself free.

We have to see what’s actually happening around us, and care enough to wake up! We are human zombies, being pulled and pushed around like characters in a movie, a literal matrix.

Everything in our environments is designed to keep us asleep at the wheel, we have been programmed to follow, like rats in a maze. We are educated just enough not to question, to be compliant. Our food is no longer nourishment, it’s poison that we can’t seem to get enough of. We are just giving away our energy and power to things that don’t matter.

If we want a different world we have to care enough to change it for ourselves, so we can change the narrative around us. Learning to love ourselves does make a difference! Look around you, start to question, ponder, figure out what’s not real in your own world.

God needs us to wake up! God needs us to start talking to him, pray, and not to a religion, no middle man is needed. I don’t care if anyone thinks I am crazy, what if I’m not? What then?