I have always struggled with using my voice, it’s something I have carried with me from my childhood. It always felt safer to fade into the background, stay silent, not be noticed, allow myself to become invisible, to not cause any problems, and definingly don’t ask for what I want.

As a grown adult, it seems so silly to me, to still find myself having moments when I forget it’s okay to take up space, it’s okay to speak up for myself, or just simply say, this is what I want. It’s my old programming, no one is asking me to do these things at this stage in my life. It’s the stories in my head that still need to be redirected, aware of my current reality.

I have no one to answer to, I am a solo traveler, so honoring myself when someone asks me a simple question, should be easy, but today it was challenging. God gave me a voice to use, to make sure I am honoring my right to take up space, learning to speak boldly, and with confidence.

I am proud of myself tonight, I had to use my voice a lot today. I even had to make some quick revision decisions, that were not small, and not worry about other people’s opinions! I am grateful I honored myself all day today. Learning and growing everyday!