So I have been arguing, or rather disobedient with father God for a while now, about a story from my past he has been wanting me to share.

So after I was divorced for about a year and half, I decided to start dating. I had started talking with someone and I was planning on a consensual experience.

When he showed up, he was cold, violent, and forceful. I am embarrassed, because I had planned on being with this man. But what started out consensual prior to his arrival, ended up being rape.

I was raped, and I have been hiding this away for a while now, it’s difficult to be vulnerable, but I have been asked to release this, and share this story. I have been reluctant and argumentative with God because I am so ashamed.

I know I am not the only one this has happened too, and I understand that releasing this as I am sharing it in hopes to help someone else find a way to release it. It’s in the release that we can find healing, even in a situation like this.

Releasing and healing trauma is so important, staying stuck in the story is toxic, unhealthy, and can create disease in the body, mind, and spirit. I no longer want to keep this inside, and in being real I hope I can help others.