So I was sitting here talking to God about how grateful I am for the strength, peace, calm in my life. I wouldn’t have those elements inside myself without God.

Than that started me down the road of when I was praying for those elements to be part of my being. When we pray to God let’s say for strength, he doesn’t just give that to you, he puts you inside chaotic situations so you can forge, discover the strength within.

There were time when I prayed and found myself in a situation, and thought that my prayers were not being answered, I was wrong. God sends you into the fire so you can rise above, create a deeper relationship with God, teach you to surrender everything up to him.

I have always tried to carry more than God has ever asked me to carry. Learning to be hyper independent as a child (generational curse, pattern) has hindered my relationship with God in the past, I have had to unlearn that, so I can freely invite God into my heart, mind, body, soul, and spirit.

Unlearning that has also brought me back to my vulnerability, femininity, softness, allowing the hard shell that use to surround my heart melt. Being able to allow the softness, in a world that only wants to create bitterness, resentment, is a gift from God.

So now I have circle back, I am grateful for the strength, peace, and calm that God has helped me cultivate into my life. Amen!