So the last time I had a sip of alcohol was April 20th 2025, which was Easter last year. The last time I smoked pot was December 15th 2025, and I have been reflecting back seeing, witnessing how far I have come on this journey of whole body health.

I stopped drinking at the beginning of my get healthy journey because I was aware enough to know it contributed to my eating unhealthy foods that I would crave after a previous night of drinking. It was a good six months at the beginning of this journey that I abstained form drinking.

After about six months I allowed myself to have a drink, after that drink I noticed that alcohol was contributing to my anxiety, depression at the time, the emotional roller coaster rides, and severe brain fog. Those effects were felt for the next week after have a few drinks thinking it would be a treat, reward. I did continue to drink for many years on occation, to make others more comfortable! That’s insane to think about now.

I am no longer a people pleaser, which I am grateful for, because now I choose not to drink because it’s what’s best for my physical, mental, and spiritual health! Plus not drinking all those extra calories for an escape from my life, I am finally at a place where I no longer need an escape, I actually enjoy being fully present.

I started smoking pot after recovering enough from my horrific partial hysterectomy surgery (background post: 2015) to go back to work. I was suffering at the time from severe anxiety attacks, extreme menopause symptoms. I had already used antidepressants years earlier and I knew that wasn’t a path I wanted to revisit.

I discovered at the time if I smoked pot in the evening, I would get an amazing nights sleep, and would feel calmer all the next day. I felt like I could actually function at work, and in my life at the time. Unfortunately, over the years and right before I quit, I was using pot as a bandaid, a way to escape, and it was starting to create more chaos than calm.

So when I left Texas, I made a promise to myself to stop smoking pot, and I have kept that promise to myself. I am proud of these accomplishments, I tend to be someone who is always looking at my next goal in life, so I have to make a conscious effort to stop and acknowledge where I am today.

I am clean and sober, and have been through out this awakening journey, path God has been leading me down. I have faced some of the hardest, challenging times in my life without the escape hatch, no bandaids! I am proud of myself, and I feel the most clear I have ever felt my entire life!

I know God has been my foundation for this accomplishment, I am grateful for the encouragement, courage, and strength he has given me during those challenging days, months. Honestly looking back at these past seven months I wouldn’t be mentally sane today if God wasn’t with me on this path! I owe so much to God and my spirit team. Amen!