I hope everyone is having a wonderful Mother’s Day, for me unfortunately it’s been a challenging day. I am estranged from my family, the black sheep, so I have been absent in recent past which includes my son. It’s part of this divine path God has been leading me down, and it’s not an easy road.

My life in review, specially during the times I was raising my son, sometime you don’t know, what you don’t know. I loved and poured myself into my son as he was growing up, to my detriment, my health mentally, physically, wasn’t stable, was in bad shape most of my parenting days.

I thought being a Mom meant, to put myself last, self abandonment, all the negative self talk about my body and who I was as a person, I was always willing to make jokes at my own expense, I would tirelessly do things for everyone else (people pleasing). These are the things I was teaching him. (Generational Curses)

I want all the Moms out there in the world today, loving your kids doesn’t mean you need to put yourself last, in fact if you want your kids to love themselves, you must learn to love yourself first! Kids learn by example, you can say, do as I say not as I do, but afters years of a bad example that’s a hard pill to swallow, and it doesn’t work.

I can only control myself and where I am today, I no longer abandon myself, I don’t people please anymore, I pour love into me, because I do love myself. My goal is always to help those a long my path, and if I can share my mistakes to help others, I will.

I am grateful to God, he sees me for all my flaws, mistakes, and loves me anyways, that’s no small task. I have surrendered, and will continue to surrender all my worries and fears up to him. I know God is working behind the scenes and I have faith God will continue to work miracles in divine timing.