In 2015 I had a partial hysterectomy that ended up almost costing my life, I ended up in the ICU with collapsed lungs and my body shutting down from how severely septic I was, with a large wound vac in my abdomen sucking out all the bile, and a ileostomy bag for my small intestine. I needed 5 additional surgeries after that to fix everything.

When I was in the ICU, I floated above myself looking down, I could see me laying in the hospital bed, respirator on my face to inflate my collapsed lungs and all my organs were failing. I was floating there looking down at myself not sure if I was going to get another chance at life, if I was walking out of there at 41 years old.

I was very sad, because all my life at that point, I had been living for others. Always making sure everyone was taken care of, loved, supported. I always worried about others approval, needs and wants. I had completely lost myself in the process of caring for others.

That was my first big awakening, without God giving me a second chance, I wouldn’t even be here today. When I found myself back inside my body, I had quite an uphill battle to climb. From the grips of death, to the healthiest version of myself today, mind, body, and spirit.

I still have work to do, I believe it’s a lifelong pursuit, but I am here all the same to continue creating the a better version of myself than I was yesterday. I am my only competition, I learned so much from battling my health, health is our wealth, and I will continue to improve this divine God lead journey I have been walking all my life, even before I knew how much God hands have kept me here on this earth through out my life.

Amen!